I am not a suicidal person, but this does make me sad. I have known this girl for 2 years, and throughout those 2 years I have slowly and slowly fell in love with her. If I were to rate how much I love her on a scale of 1-10 as of today, it would be an eight. Here is the problem though. She pains me and hurts me so much, but she doesn’t mean to. She doesn’t even know show does. She knows how I feel, and she always seems flirtatious, but then some other time she makes it seem like she’s doing it to make me happy. About two nights ago she was super depressed. She started… she started to cut herself. Of course, me being in love with her, I stayed up all night to cheer her up. I of course did make her happy, and she told me that she was falling in love with me. When I asked her about it today, she seemed like she doesn’t feel that way anymore. When she said she was falling in love two nights ago, I about cried out of joy. Today I cried out of pain. She brought me up just to end up shooting me down. I just don’t know what to do. Has me trying to make her happy for two years, me loving her, all been for nothing? Will my hopes ever come true. I cannot get her out of my mind.
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This seems all too familiar. Your love is true and I can read the heart you have for her but if you love her and want to not feel this way then you can try taking charge of your feelings and what others do to affect them. She needs you to be her friend and help her not just love her. You could be assertive and try yo bring it all out on the table because your 8 will be a 10 someday and then what. You’ll hurt more than you do now. Your pain goes hand in hand with hers and if she doesn’t take the help you have to do Iike I do with people I love now. If they hurt or are hurting me I try to help me by assertively helping them to see and if they can’t or won’t take the help and quit then I have yo walk away because I am suicidal and am a suicide survivor. Don’t let her be a scar on you or you a scar on her because after you do try then she will have to think about that. If not now then guaranteed one day she will have to reflect on her own life and try and rationalize everything she did in it and the harder you try the more she will have yo think about. Even if your last effort to help is to walk away and let her fall. She’ll learn to crawl and then stand again one day. Its like a parent that has to eventually let their child start making their own mistakes or they’ll never learn the consequences of life and will but fall to the masses.
I do help her, all the time. It’s just now she made it seem like she doesn’t need me anymore, and thats what hurts the most.
Then maybe you need to take it for what its worth and step away and let her help herself bc that’s like she is taking for granted all you’ve done and she’s pushing you away bc she knows damn well your gonna chase her like a puppy.