Life is so tough and BDD makes everything worse…
The last time I went to the psychiatrist I was diagnosed with depression and the Dr. recommended antidepressants, I refused to accept the “treatment”, I know those stupid pills ain’t gonna solve my problem, probably plastic surgery and aesthetic treatments will do.I’m really sure I got BDD, I have all the symptoms, I even explained my situation on experice project and some users who also have BDD agreed with me.
I just wanna sleep forever…BDD it’s a living hell, the tiniest skin blemish can drive you mad, I to make things even worse I got acne blemishes and they take too long to vanish, I spent lots and lots of money trying to remove and nothing worked properly so far.My family isn’t rich so I can’t afford to do the countless plastic surgeries I think I need.I have a bent nose, my hair is always disappointing me, my teeth are growing wrong, my chin isn’t perfect…AAAHHH! I wanna scream and cry everytime I stare at my reflection and I notice a tiny imperfection, it’s annoying!…no matter how you look, you never feel satisfied…
I’m 18 now and I finished high school, I have BDD since my 16’s … I wasn’t bullied at school…well, not directly, I used to hear some commentaries about my appearance and when I had a conflict with anyone they usually started teasing me about my look.
Some “friends” even told me I’m ugly sometimes , sometimes they were just joking but sometimes it was for real, and I tried to take it easy, but deep inside I know it’s true…