Tired

Tired of life, tired of trying, tired of it all. Geezer crispies, no matter what I do or say or anything, I fuck up and no one likes me. I try to help, I try to make them smile, I try to make people forget their problems and what not… it doesn’t work. I am hopeless, worthless, useless, disgusting, stupid, need to go. I’m unhelpful. I’m not able to BE helped. I wish I could just lay down and disappear for life, but, I can’t. I’m too chicken to suicide, I’m too cowardly to run away, I won’t do stupid shit. What the fuck am I even good for? God, I feel like such a ***** most days, why do I even exist? I’m gross. Eww. I have a pointless life, really. This is short. I don’t think I’ll ever get to posting anything more again. I just needed a one time vent thing. No, I won’t off myself, I don’t think. But I won’t be around much, either. I need to disengage from the Interwebs, focus on the here and now, and, fuck! People don’t matter. I’m gonna just do stuff for me. I know I’ll still be miserable – depressed and anxious and useless. But at least I’ll be out of peoples’ ways. Augh. Fuck me….