I’m not sure why. I just feel so surrounded by death. why are people in my family dying but not me? I know I’m fucked when I die, God will be so disappointed.. but why am I still alive? I have a good family, a few good friends. I’m not ill. I’m just so worn out and depressed I don’t see the point in life. it’s all so temporary.
used to ask God every single day for 38 months straight in jail to just kill me. lost who I thought was the love of my life. but I got past it and felt better. now I don’t know man, I’m so tired of living. my only joy is getting stoned and even then sometimes I think myself into oblivion. I don’t sleep at night, I don’t eat regularly.. I just want to give up but I don’t know how. I’ve stayed strong but I can’t do it anymore. I don’t want to. I think about what death is like all the time.. it’s fucking eating my soul I can’t take it anymore
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I feel the same way.. im so depressed I dont even want to get stoned anymore… life is just temporary and nothing you do here really matters in the end.. this is the first post ive read that made me feel like I was not the only one fighting this unwinable war of temporary doom..
yea it’s like when I’m high I just don’t enjoy it anymore but it numbs my thoughts a little.. nothing will matter except what you take to the grave and I don’t see the point in stressing over all this materialistic shit.. I just want peace..
Haiku for Hazedkfnap
You deserve to live
God is NOT disappointed
Love is the answer
Haiku#2
Burning pain unseen
This life fucking hurts sometimes
Love is the answer
if only love wasn’t so elusive.. I don’t know how to find it anymore. I’m done trying