Why should I?

What do you mean that you couldn’t prove that you love your country? You don’t have to kill a bunch of terrorists to do that, but it’d be nice. And your country is really an idea…America’s full of scummy people as well who don’t give a rat’s ass about you.

Personally I respect soldiers and I’d say I have warriors blood because I like war-only when it leads to the destruction of evil people an ideologies.

I understand what you mean when you love someone…I’ve also loved and lost as well, but sometimes things just don’t work out as hoped.

The more and more I’ve thought about my own death, the more I’ve found some things in life to be unique and special, particularly a couple of people within my life. There’s some things I’d still like to do and experience before I fade back into the nothingness we all emerged from, which is why I’m still around.

But in my case the circumstances of my life make it an additional challenge or a layer of suffering, misery, anger and hate I experience on top of my already negative feelings about living.

If you can try to find work in the military again it might be your best bet-even if you have to go to another state. Also there are other women out there…but I’m not one to give advice in that department. I used to be very desirable to women once and now I barely ever get noticed….my fault I let myself go…it’s a sad irony to get older and for once get your head straight, to understand women, to know how to exploit great opportunities….but then no longer have the gifts/assets you once did when you were younger but completely foolish and squandered your time away only realizing too late what you could’ve had.