It feels like the only way to get people to care is if your dead or in critical condition man I swear if I had a gun id blow myself away.i just got out out of the er for trying to kill myself twice in one day. They let me in the morning and by night time I was back and they let me go again.the reason im upset though is cause the psychiatrist said my problems are not considered a crisis. I dont usually speak up for myself but I wish I had told him to go fuck himself.i have put off suicide attempts until the dayy after I turn twenty two in September. Until that time ill be researching the best methods to end my life
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Yes! First they tell you the only reason you consider suicide is because your brain is diseased. Then when they forcibly institutionalize you, they tell you to get over it, give you some hollow lecture about how important community is–how important it is to open up to people honestly, and when they can’t find you any community they release you back on your own–into the very situation they JUST told you is so dangerous for you.
Then they get rich or famous publishing all this research about how social situations lead to major cognitive decline, even as they espouse the culture that generates those social situations, they tell you to learn to adapt. To the very circumstances they’ve become famous for divulging lead to cognitive states like depression.
And the final slap in the face, they tell you you’re not in control of your depression–that it’s an organic disease, that you cannot will yourself out of it and therefore require professional intervention, including drugs. Then when you’re in “therapy” (and doped up) they tell you to take control of your life and disease. And if the drugs don’t work, it’s your fault because you’re not trying hard enough–because, you know, you gotta have that will. You gotta laugh–either that or cry!
I’ve been researching a lot and until now I haven’t found the right method yet. I mean for every stuff there are always pros and cons..ugh! I’m in the medical field and every time I think of a way I kinda imagine it and damn!
it’s really hard, I’ve been thinking about it since I was in highschool and I even wonder why until now I haven’t done it (sorry for my english) but then maybe its because the more I think about the methods, the easier escape, the more I realize there is no easy way out…so instead of over analyzing things I read, I am a bookworm. Do what you feel like doing, the thing you are confident to do and don’t care about what other people will think because they will always be judgemental no matter what you do.