Fuck it

Things seemed like they were going great, I’m so stupid. Why the fuck would I be optimistic when life just had to bite me in the ass. I have to go to Sydney, a massively overcrowded city to see my family, be tossed from one family to the other whilst old people hug me and say I have grown so much, see my best friend (and I use that term lightly) who has ignored me since I last went back to Sydney. I also get to see her older brother (my old crush from when I was little) and he loves to torment me saying that I’m just his sisters weird fucked up friend, I also get to so my best friends ex who is now one of my close friends who is in love with me and tries to kiss me which my boyfriend hates. My boyfriend is getting depressed because I don’t talk to him as much because I am always stressed and a massive introvert, I just want them all to leave me alone… Why has life got to make everything that is good into something that is bad.