How come when I set the goal to kill myself and begin working towards it I have this feeling of drive and passion, but when I set any other goal and work towards it, it feels like a waste of time.
I’ve begun taking inventory of everything I own. I’m building a simple website to list everything so I can sell it. The idea is instead of placing a million classified ads, I just post a few and link back to my site for a complete list of what’s for sale. The money earned should help me correct my finances. I don’t want to leave any debt or anything behind.
Once my site goes live, the beginning of the dis-mantling of my life will begin. Sell everything I own. Sell my house. Quit my job, telling them I’m moving somewhere for a better job. Take my car, alcohol, weed, camping supplies & shotgun. Drive off into the middle of nowhere. Then hike for a few days into the middle of nowhere. Blow my brains out. Disappear. No-one will know I’m gone.
This is my goal…