One constant thing is sp

Somehow i always end up back here… back to my blog thats held my darkest secrets. I guess i find some comfort in that sp will always be here to listen. ive turned to tumblr recently which ive been venting on… but on here its different. every time i come on i feel like ive lost a battle; except this time i can truthfully say i dont want to die; i have so much more living to do… but i am so sad. i’m lonely and i hate feeling this way. I feel anxious all the time, i feel helpless, alone and i hate living this way. I just pray that soon i will find happiness, i will continue to have the strength to live and work toward a better future. Thank you sp for being the one constant thing in my life i can always depend on turing to…