The difficult thing with the not-yet part, is the illness. Illnesses. Just because I’ve informed the committee that there will be a delay, the pain doesn’t vanish. It gets alleviated somewhat by the placatory there there, one day it’ll be over …but there are still major episodes and major episodes don’t give a fuck about listening, they just scream.
But I can probably do it. Hopefully.
The world is not seeming sweeter as a result. Colours are not brighter. By the time I can go, there won’t even be any goodbyes to say. Does that make me luckier or unluckier than you, who will create anguish in your wake?
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Im sorry your in pain…and yes you can do it just hang in there.
I would say unluckier if you’ve no longer anyone to say goodbye to…even if it saves them from pain…that just seems a further hit on the sense of being alone as it is..
Thanks aeterna, you’re a good person.