It’s Sunday night, and as usual I’m stuck inside. No one trusts me to go out anymore and I always feel as though I’m on lock down. I’m bored. I don’t really want to play video games or watch movies, I have been doing nothing but that for the past month. Hoping some of you out there want to lighten up the mood, weekends are hard for me and apparently that’s not so uncommon. Especially since I know there are things I could be doing but can’t because it’s so hard to travel where I am without a car. I should have asked to get dropped off somewhere, like an event or something but my sister already left on her date so now I’m home alone as always. Just struggling with the heat… so let’s exchange some ideas, thoughts, music, ramblings. I feel so lonely and bored sometimes, I only talk to one person these days and that’s my sister. It’s like I’m not allowed outside to socialize with other people. Meanwhile boyfriend is out at the beach, having fun with all his friends. And here I am, trying to figure out ways to pay for college and put myself through school while he’s partying every day, and getting high as always. I feel like that girl from flavor of the week. And it’s hard seeing these girls I know, traveling to Paris and London on vacation and just getting tons of stuff and wearing so many nice things while having the time of their life. It’s like I don’t belong in their world, they will never have to struggle like I have. Even my boyfriend has a trust fund in his name.
Wow sorry for that weird ending, guess I’m just frustrated at life. I know I have to work harder than others to get somewhere. Anyway, back to trying to have a fun sunday night if anyone is down.