todays rant

today i smoked the last of my weed in a awsom pipe i found kicking around the house today i met a new guy whos odvs a shrink but hes a yank and “hip and cool as was in us airborn” hes ok to nice though… today…. today i cryed cos im in tret of loseing the girl i lov theres biger problems in the world than my love life tthat i haft to worry about like my frends who is crying cos she was raped on the 5 haveing been were shes at i know how shes feeling it neverchanges all the people cry the same hug me the same and curse the names the same… all i can think about it a stif drink although i havent drunk in years im siting in bet now under the covers sweeting my balls off siping gin and lemonaid (da fuck kinder drink is this) im cuting all the lines back to were i was right now i dont give a shit fucking kill me i whant a famaly a wife kids how the fuck can i do that when ill just make them all sad cos im sad now cas thay will have the same fucked up shit with them i whant to die fucking kill me let me slip in to the warter and let the air rush out my moth and warter gergel in my lungs and in my cold dead fingers thats were your find my fucking hope *drink* so yer  im fucked im in love more fucked (but i dont care i love her and all her imperfections) im broken more fucked iv started to larp and have fun sooo fucked now im going to be expested to be fine every one will leve me and ill be the fales smiling dick but then agin larp is fun hit nerd with sword and shot people with bows seems legit *drink drink drink* more fags and booz plez