That’s how I feel. I want to die, but I feel stuck now. There are people who love me. People who want to see me get far in life. But I barely have any motivation to do anything. I don’t have a job, and I wasn’t able to graduate last year because of the sheer amount of days I missed from school. My ex is the total opposite of me. He has likes, wants, goals, and tons of motivation. He graduated high school last year, and took on a job at wal-mart to support his hobbies. I’m this person who’s dependent on medication and even then I barely make it through the day; he’s able to do everything twice as well without any. I guess that’s why we eventually became so distant. He broke up with me on our anniversary, telling me that he’d rather be alone — his way of dropping what had been dead weight for so long. He was able to do even better on his own, whereas I had become worse.
Every time I try to end it, I keep thinking of what I’d be leaving behind. Would it be better to stay alive for them, even though I’m such a burden? It’s like I have this longing for death. No matter how I look at it, I feel like I’d be much better off dead. So I feel trapped, stuck where everyone around me does so much better.
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What’s with you guys and graduating highschool, i even thought you were talking about college. Well here where i live. If you cant get your ass a degree, u ain’t worth shit. Unless you become pro active and work your ass up the social relevance table. And what’s the big deal about a guy working in walmart? Hmm! I am so angry about your case.
What’s the big deal with you? Maybe you should consider taking a long walk off a short cliff.
At least i would end up with the notion that i went through highschool and college. Yepee
Your mother never liked you.
Lol u re so funny. Yea i know, but do you??
You really have nothing better to do than attack somebody on a suicide forum? I never graduated from college either yet I have a good job and was even approached by the VP of where I work about a managerial opening. People can still make something of themselves without a college degree. It’s harder to get a better job – I give you that – but having a degree obviously doesn’t make a person better or necessarily happier. I know of one instance where the person was kind of a jerk.
Also, for entry level work right out of high school, Wal-Mart might be all that’s really available in the area.
When someone bares their soul around here looking for support and a kind ear, they shouldn’t be ridiculed for their situation. Would you like it if someone did the same to you?
Easy bro. Don’t make judgments about someone else’s story, especially here. None of us fully understands how anyone else feels, or what their life is like. Give TwistedSpace a break.
TwistedSpace, I feel for you. When one is depressed, it can be almost impossible to find any motivation. My deepest sympathies my friend.
See if I was dead, I wouldn’t have to deal with this shit.
Owk. I am sorry. Twisty. I am so sorry about tha! Things i said. I am not always like this. I get nice at times too.
Hey! Believe me. You wont die, there is no way you re gonna die without proving to the world and its walmat guys that you are a survivor. Yea you will survive. I am really sorry about those shit earlier. I am so sorry. What should i do. Shld i still take that stroll of the cliff you recommended?
Yes please.
Ok, bye everybody, as i end my life with an unceremonious cliffhanger experience. Those who have pushed me to do this should not be considered as wicked they are just kind and concerned about my phobia for heights. Bye twisty make sure you kick ass’s, and don’t make my jumping off meaningless stay strong and be the best nobody wants you to be. Ok here i go. Just give me a light push.