I don’t actually know what to write .. even my tears roll down my face , before I even put my hand on the keyboard .
is it because it’s too painful to be written ? or because I’ll be writting something , people would never pay attention to ?
I’m not a suicidal person , I do not cut myself or had suicide attempts .. I just cry , tears hurt more than any cuts on your wrist .. you know why ? cause the pain may go away when you cut yourself , you either die , or get help … but tears , they don’t wash the pain enough , they just fade away for hours maybe days , then come back .
everything can be fixed in a little while , but the damages happening to me , I would never be able to fix I think … I’m that girl that acts strong all day long , faking a smile , and acting okay , then at night she waits untill everyone falls asleep so she can cry herself to sleep .. and it hurts I swear :'(
I’m glad I finally found a place , where I can put my feelings into words .. Yeah poor little girl , I’ve got no one that cares about how I feel , or how was my day , or am I oay ? … actually no one cares about how many days I spent crying on my pillow , how much pain I go through every single day , the suicidal thoughts I have , whenever I feel bad .. No does , and No one will do :'(
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What’s brought you to this point Fragile?
I don’t exactly know .. Maybe going through a hard break up and having depression :s besides all those high school and family stress :s that’s what brought me to this point , and maybe more :3
I won’t make assumptions into your life, and I know everyone handles stress differently, but these are problems the majority of teenagers go through. What’s your family life like if you don’t mind my asking?
I know that we’ve all been through this phase , but it’s too much to handle , and I can’t take all alone :s
well it’s not that bad , one good family , but you know , all parents fight :s besides they’re not a caring family , everyone cares about himself only , and turns a blind eye to the other one , which always me who’s left behind :s
That’s pretty shitty. I also went through my own troubles in my home life, though the way I dealt with it I wouldn’t recommend to anybody. Do you have a friend, or favorite teacher you might feel comfortable sharing this with?
hhhh you think if I had one , I’d be here telling my problems to strangers … I’m kind of an antisocial person :s besides I don’t have real friends , I even had a fight with my bff
Every relationship has it’s problems. Doesn’t mean it can’t be mended. All I can tell you is, you are going through what the majority of teenagers do. Don’t overreact, you’ll be fine.
oh don’t worry , I’m sure that I’ll be fine :s I just needed someone to listen .. and thanx
No problem, i’m usually around so if you need to talk again, i’m here.
I appreciate it <3
I am sorry you feel this way
You say that you’re not suicidal, but if you’re having suicidal thoughts, that is suicidal. Life hurts. Perhaps your family, like mine, doesn’t know how to share painful thoughts. They run away from them or get angry. So you cry them into your pillow alone. I believe you when you say how much it hurts. People can be so plastic. Most people on this side are not plastic. They are real. I wish I could help, but I’m not a therapist and this is the internet. BTW, most people who cut cannot cry. That is why they cut.
I cry while I cut. I hate the tears. They are a permanent sign of my weakness. I know what you’re going through. You shouldn’t have to feel the way you do. If I could I would take away all your sadness and pain. I would absorb it all for you so that you could live a carefree and loving life. I would do it for every one of the people on this site.
#Cayt515 , yeah I wish we could take away the pain that everyone on this site feels , I wish we have just one chance to draw a smile on their faces .. we’re all going through the same problems , some of cut themselves and other just cry .. it sucks really :s
I actually run a suicidal thoughts ‘ page , and that really affects me ..