I decided to not kill myself and face what the hackers and their coalition have in store for me. I have actually been praying, and asking god for forgiveness for being such a messed up human. The Coalition of hackers and people they got to their side from hacking tricks, deception, and me simply being manic are in the process of trying to get me thrown in jail. Ironic as it is considering how I was being hacked and harassed and all, but it is what it is. I hope if there is a god he can see despite all of my flaws that deep down I am a decent person who has never hurt a soul nor intends to.

I’m scared though to be honest, I have no idea what is coming, there are so many people out there trying to destroy my life I really do feel powerless. I hope someone out there has some kindness left in them for a fuck up like me. Though I’m not expecting much they really seem intent on their course of action. I was at fault though too, though I was  a manic trainwreck I was too weak to control my own demons and let my manic behavior get out of hand. It’s bad I became an internet celeb and they somehow have images of me even though I never post selfies or any personal pics on social media. Due to everything people think I can’t be redeamed, I ask for your forgiveness and mercy. I understand that there is going to be consequences for everything, I just ask that you please take into consideration what I’ve been dealing with my whole life. I really am struggling with a mental illness. I won’t ask for your pity just for you to keep an open mind. I also realize I have to be strong for my family if I end it they may never recover from another death. Family is amazing they would love and care about me of all people.  Sorry for the I’m going to end it post last night, spamming the site with a post like that. I wasn’t seeking attention I was seriously going to end it I had decided.