Sitting here now writing strangers in the same boat feels a little odd to me. I was not intending to be here, but want to put it out there now that I am. I’m 42, dealing with chronic neck and back pain for the last 10 years. Co-pay after Co-pay it never gets better unless I’m drugged. Drugs are turning me into mush and procedures fail to elevate the pain. I’ve been thinking about this for some time, I feel at peace with my decisions. I’m getting closer to a reality that has been a spark growing for some time. I’m ready and feel good about it. I’m going to head up north to the Arizona Mountains where the sunset is warm and beautiful. I’m going to hike as far as I can into the woods with my favorite tunes, pictures of my family. I want to be alone and give myself a little time to reflect. I feel good knowing I’m ready and that if there’s a God, he will be waiting 🙂 Reguardless, I will be free, pain free.
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I feel like I could have wrote this. (Tears) I am 42. In chronic pain for 15 years. There’s nothing left to try. The meds are making me a dif person. Short term memory issues, etc.
Could we talk? It would be so good for me to feel like someone finally understands.