Here’s what I mean. I just came back from going upto the shops. It took me 2hrs to walk up there & back. I walk in the door, everybody is downstairs & NOBODY notices me. I walk, or rather hobble, right infront of them & no one says anything. Its like I don’t exist until someone wants something from me!
I just want my old life back. Where I was happy, or could pretend easily, would go out every weekend, drink, make friends. Where noone told me I should do this or that, people needed me for help, but they would also help me. Where I had no pain & the worst thing that would happen to me was a hangover.
This is why I am tired of my life. I don’t want to be in pain anymore. I don’t want people looking down their nose at me calling me stupid or lazy or faker. I’m tired of everyone taking everything from me until there is nothing left.