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August 31st.
I’m sitting here on my chair, thinking about ME and MY pathetic life as usual. Given the fact that today is my birthday just makes me feel ”ultra sad”. Birthday usually symbolize the day of you being bought upon this world so you can ”celebrite” it. But in my definition of birthday is totally different, the thought of birthday makes me sad, what have i got to celebrite for? Being forced to live in this world? All I did was making my birth mother suffered, being pushed out of her womb as she scream in absolute pain is something to be happy for? Enough for you (me) to celebrite it? Why is the idea of being born onto this sickening world would be a celebrition value?
Birthday just makes me more depressed than I already am. The minute I so disgustingly being forced out to the earth atmosphere from the non existence dimension was the day my suffering begins. Wasted my parents money, enregy, space, goals for over 20 years is something that I should celebrite about? How am I supposed to live with that? My existence is no more worth than the left over in the trash can.
I’ve been fighting the deamon inside for years. It has consumed and destroyed me in ways that you can’t possibly imagine, where did it come from in the first place anyways? Why can’t it just kill me form within so I don’t have to suffer anymore?
WHAT THE FUCK AM I LIVING FOR? Birthday is just another day to reminds me how alone and sick I am and eventually I will be and die alone.
If I could take all of y’all pain and take them all with me, I would. Seeing how many people are suffering in this site and world and there’s nothing I can do about it just makes me so sad and useless.
Rant over, thank you.
5 comments
I fully agree with you. My birthdays suck. Why celebrate? Noone remembers or gets my birthday right. It takes a calendar or app for them to remember. Why celebrate another year of shit?
I hear ya {hugz}
@kateralia
Thank you! It’s nice to have someone acknowledged your pain. But I’m very sorry that you feel the same as I do, it really is painful. No one remembers my birthday, yeah, that statement is so true.
I am sorry. Hugs back!
I’m sorry u feel this way I think everybody has doubts about why are they still here or what am I to do maybe you just need friends to help you in your time of need n to be there for u that’s how I feel listen life is a ***** but u can either get up or stay down n let it beat u up
@insecure-wreck
Thank you, insecure-wreck. I’ve read your post I know how you feel. Although I couldn’t make up what I should say. I’m sorry life is such a pain for you. And no, friends wouldn’t help and on the contrary it would justy bring them down because no one wants a depressed person around them with their happy life.
Yeah… My bday was Aug 30 and I kinda feel the same way as you.