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September 2014
There are so many things I want to say to the do-gooders who come here…. All I will say is this… People will be heartbroken if I die? So, I should continue to live my life so others aren’t hurt. Are you kidding me? That’s partly why I am here now… If you have no clue about thus type of suffering, please don’t say anything. Sorry. I’ve just had it.
I see people on this website and how their problems are far worse than mine, and I want them to be happy. I want to cheer them up. I click the comment button, but as soon as I start to type, my mind blanks out. How can I help other people when I can’t even help myself?
(Not proofread, I lose the guts to post the stuff if I do)
xoxo,
It’s Only Me
I see myself running around chasing two kids. I see myself laughing on my wedding day. I see myself being happy. I think it’s all attainable. To grow up, be happy and lead a life that makes me smile.
I know that I have many years left. The number of years I have lived is considered small. In people’s eyes I’m considered a child. I don’t find myself mature, but I don’t find myself childish either. Why is age so important? I think of my future. It seems as if I have so much ahead of me, but my mind reminds myself that what I’m thinking […]
Its funny. I did not ever think Id write on this blog. But eventually I have to. I felt so down ever since I was child, I am introverted. Last year I found a person who made me life a happy life, but temporarily. Many has changed, but eventually Misery, my love, found me once again. Im having these depressions and I have no idea what to do. Everytime I feel like this, I wanna quit. Die, sacrifice, doesnt matter. Wouldnt fight back at all. But then I wake up and my brain tells me “You will try again”. I dont want it to. I […]
This depression is SO painful. My mind hurts. My chest hurts. I can barely stop crying. I really need to leave this earth so badly. There are little glimmers of hope, like tiny shimmers of light, but they’re gone just as quickly as they appear. Other than that, I worry for my daughter, how selfish of me it would be to bring her into this rotten world and then abandon her here without even me. I worry for my family, they would most likely never get over the grief of losing me, even tho I’m nothing. A burden. Useless. A failure. Still, that’s the way […]
So, I’m 15 years old and I want to die. I only have one person in my life that genuinely cares about me. He’s the love of my life. My mom and dad are both in jail for possession of drugs. I have only seen my parents once. They were doing cocaine around me when I was only a few weeks old and then they were caught with it. I now live with my grandparents. They treat me decently but I’m probably not going to have them in my life much longer. They’re both in their 80’s. They don’t have the best health condition. After […]
i don’t even know why i am writing this really i suppose subconsciously i do i am just so tired of waking up each day with no purpose trying to do something with my life only to realize it holds no meaning in the grand scheme of existence and that ultimately i will always just disappointment myself with my own inadequacies i hate myself and the world for being the way i am i always feel so hollow like i am not even real and that i am no good to anyone it feels like my very existence is being stretched across some medieval torture […]
My last person for support has officially lost patience with me. I’m completely and utterly alone.
I made the decision Friday as I was leaving work.
I’ve been struggling with it since I came here. After years of trying, I finally got hired for my dream job. I moved to another state – something I’ve always wanted to do – to take it. The job is good. My coworkers are good. My boss is good, and the money is good.
The problem is me. I’m an utter failure. In the few weeks that I’ve been here, I’ve mishandled tickets, screwed up projects, behaved unprofessionally, and even lost data. My coworkers can’t stand me, and I can’t blame them. One guy is actually looking for another […]
yep im a daddy im happy yes but heres the wondaful cach when she figerd it out she became deprest freeked out and now shes broken up with em thinking im going to be angrey i told her its her body she can do as shes pleases so if she dos keep it or get rid of it (i hate refering to it as it but idk how els to say genderless child) im going to be there ither way the problem is i love her i love her with all my heart i whant to make it work between up but she whont exsept […]
I’m not sure where to express what I’m feeling. I don’t want to drag down my friends. I don’t want to announce it on Facebook.
I’m totally heartbroken. I miss my ex so much. He turned out to be not very nice in the end. I feel like I’ve lost part of myself. I can’t believe he could be so callous, so cold – to leave me when I was suicidal, two days after fleeing home because I couldn’t cope. He left me homeless and took advantage of me sexually. Like, what? How? This person told me he loved me more than anyone in the world […]
Have you ever felt like a tree whose branches can not stretch out? The other seeds that were born along with you grow up as humans and you are the only one who actually a tree. People ask your protection when the sun is hot, or simply ignoring you. I kinda assure myself from time to time that ‘Well! It’s finally normal now, but then you see things become worse again and you feel you’re suck again and sick of it.’ It is more or less like an eternal death or a time paradox. There are blind people, homeless ppl, deaf ppl, and I have this […]
i really feel like shit. i cry all the time when i’m alone. i wanna cut, but i’m trying to stop for my friends and bf. i find it hard to trust people, bc all of them who have been broken promissis. i’m trying this, bc maybe it helps idk. but i have to do at least one thing to try to stop.
thx for let me share Xx
My friend Is coming home!!Since you were In some other state,bet you aint leaving Houston anymore!!
written by lifeishorrible
My friend Is coming home someday next week!!!He was suppose to do 2-10 years but he’s coming next week!!!I don’t know why,really I don’t care why!! (I haven’t talked to him or visited him just to be on the safe side)
I don’t know If he’s gonna come back with my phone but I don’t care!!Well that Is the second time the laws kept my phone but owell Its just a phone,my friend Is coming!!I wonder If he has any resentment towards me??
The tip of the blade touches my skin
My body shrieks for me to stop
But with my heart aching so
My mind tells me to carry on
I push the blade hard against my frail skin
The tears fall delicately like the melancholy of rain droplets
Yet as I pull the stainless steel up my arm
My emotions are gone, I just feel numb
I ardour watching as my skin torn asunder
Almost […]
I’m not sure how to put this in words. today my last family member in my life said he didn’t wanna hear ne more “excuses” y my life sucks. and to me that’s just like the rest of the world. have enuf and turn away. i have a beautiful daughter. i promised her id stay with her since I’m all she has. but couple weeks ago i got caught up with a joint. and now cps all up me. my lights and water will b cut off in a couple weeks and i have no way to put heat in my house. so cps will […]
I had a bit of an epiphany a moment ago; I’ve been listening to the same music for a while now.
Not that it hasn’t been great, love the groups I listen to (Avenged 7x, ADTR, Suicide Silence, SWS, Breaking Ben, Slipknot, All that Remains, All Time Low, Bullet For My Valentine, Avril L, Evanescence, etc)
Anyway, would love some new material. Even if it’s just a song stuck in your head, I wanna hear about it.
In the past few months I slipped into a deeper than my usual constant state of depression and decided ‘that’s it, either I die or I stop living like this.’
I went to my doctor for sleeping problems and was prescribed Trazadone. It’s made me improve a noticeable amount, at least with sleep. I thought maybe I could get better, but what do I look up tonight? I want to kill myself. A third of my life’s been shadowed by depression and I’m tired. The second I got the prescription to the pharmacy I was looking up overdosing on it. Would I be easy, would […]
…and you’re just, appalled? Disgusted?
When I take a look at me – when I really look at myself, I don’t like who I am. I think I did at one point, back in high school, when things were easier. I was popular. I was lusted after. I was loved by my peers and teachers. I had them all fooled. I had myself fooled.
You could say I have an addiction. I cannot seem to shake this feeling that I will never, ever be content.
“Whore.”
“Pathetic.”
Why do I keep treating myself like this? Will I always feel this way? I need to forgive myself, accept that […]