to try to open up to her? Like seriously, I asked her about it, but she had no interest at all to talk about it. “I don’t want to talk it.” I hate you, whoever told me to do this 🙁 She was nice about it though. She wasn’t upset or rude or anything, I guess she just thinks I’m not the person to talk to about stuff like that.
Btw, I asked our running instructor for her email, and she emailed me her skype account and we chatted a few times over the last few weeks. I have no idea how she thinks about me, or what I am doing wrong, or what I should do at all. RL is so difficult, why can’t it be more like a computer? When there is a problem, there will be a fix and you just have to work on it hard enough to find it. When I’m programming and something doesn’t work, it is my fault ONLY, no random factors I cannot control. People think understanding a computer is hard, but imo it’s way harder to understand a human being; even though most people understand humans better than computers. And people still wonder why I prefer being at home instead of going out partying…
PS: Of course I don’t actually hate you, I know you were only trying to help.