Help

Hey guys, I’m 16 years old. and I am just trying to leave this house. I’m a disappointment to not only my parents, but my school, my sisters, and my life as well. I just wanted to know, how the hell am I supposed to get by. I’ve been kicked out of my house before, however the most I’ve spent is about 2 weeks outside before they allowed me back in. I just can’t stay here anymore. It not only will hurt them, but it’s eating me inside too. I can’t seem to see a future for myself. I’m flunking out of high school, I’m skipping school, and I’m doing drugs and alchohol. To be honest, these are all my decisions to make. I FUCKED UP. I don’t know if I can do this, but I feel as if I stay here any longer, I’m going to commit suicide.