this girl says I’m the one…she says she loves me…I’m get soul mate. Before she came along I didn’t wanna live at all. She came to me and all I wanted to do was live and be with her. But she’s left me four times. She needs a break…again. I can’t do it anymore. I’m so stupid. I mest up with this. Now she’s gone and all I wanna do is die. I want someone or something to kill me. I love her so much and she says she loves me. I don’t understand why she keeps doing this. After everything ice done for her…she looks right through me and has no problem ignoring me during this break. It hurts so bad. All I can do is cry in sells pitty. I hope someone pulls a gun on me and just kills me. She’s the only one who can make me happy like that. I.just don’t know what to do. I have ADHD to top it off and I take my meds and it just makes it worse. I just wanna escape. I wanna find someone to love but no one I like likes me the same.
It’s hopeless…it’s useless…I feel so life less. She’s a goddess and I was so willingto do anything for her. Why food she keep doing this to me. All I want is her. All I need is her. She got back with me because she felt guilty…not because she loved. I’m so stupid. I ment nothing to her. And I will continue to mean nothing. She was my everything and I was her nothing