I don’t think I can last til Jan, maybe I’ll speed everything up & check out on my bday (nov 29). I am so sick of living with these inconsiderate idiots! She doesn’t even seem to care about her own children! He put them to bed without showers & still in their sweaty, dirty day clothes. He is such a hypocritical, chauvinistic prick, writing rules for all of us to follow, but they don’t apply to him.
They are both downstairs, playing video games & have music up so loud it is amplified in the kids bedrooms! I can’t even be in my own ‘room’ cos the noise is too loud.
I can see the kids are slowly becoming wary & scared of him. He does not hurt them physically, but the way he talks to them & handles them, its hurting them mentally & emotionally. He is not ready for a family. I really don’t want to be around when they have a kid together!
Oh & the only kind of joy I have is watching my TV shows, but now that has been taken away from me, as I have been told I am using too much Internet! I have been having nightmares every night for the past 2 weeks, always different, but same subject. It’s me being kicked out for one reason or another. Mostly because I am the reason for the trouble in the house or I’m not doing enough around the house
I don’t want to die, but I can’t live this way & my life is not going to get better.
I cannot get out of here, alive, as I have nowhere to go. I know I said I’d wait till January, but I dont think I can