Sometimes I really wish to disappear for a while
I feel so lonely . Not really that I have no friends
its that I think no one will devote all of them for me
i am willing to prepare and spend a lot of effort for my beloved ones . But I just think no one will do the same for me
no one will actually treasure me and put me as their priority
I have bff and bf . But I’m just confused of my importance to them
Also I got a lot of stress from my schoolworks
im going to take the public examination and I have to work extremely hard to enter university
i really want to disappear . I’m not trying to commit suicide or die . I just don’t want to exist in the world
maybe to escape or maybe to see if anyone would cry or worried me .
i am so insecure and not confident to myself
i am not beautiful I am not smart
I am just ordinary and I think I can replaced by anyone anytime
just don’t feel my meaning of life
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No one loves me enough either. I always feel that I give more than I get back. 99% of people are a big let down and disappointment I’m afraid.
i recognize myself in your writing. Its kind of sad. I think we are expecting too much from people. There might not be many people out there, but I am sure there are a few who care about us, even if they cant show it in a way we want/need. I think that’s the difference between them and us, they have the self-love and put themselves first.
I wanted to disappear too..Im 25 years old and Im tired living in this world..I hate humans and I dont want to become human anymore..right now, my goal is to save money so that at least I can help my siblings finished their study..after that Im willing to disappear..possibly 2 years from now..I actually often think of disappearing ,I am now ready but I care for my family so I must help them first..they dont even have any idea about how I feel. I wanted to disappear..my soul and my physical body..I dont want to die because if you die, your soul will leave your body and your physical body will be left behind..I dont want that to happen..I love myself and if Im gone, I wanted my wholeself disappear..my soul and my physical body.