I’m bulimic. Yes I use laxatives, enemas, diuretics, I self induce vomiting and I binge on food. So what! I’m so sick and tired of everyone making it in to a big deal saying I don’t need to lose weight that I’m not fat I am they are just trying to keep me fat so they feel better about there below par bodies. Its not my fault they are determined to drop weight. And I’m sick of them trying to “warn me” that it would kill me. If I wanted to live FAT then yea I would stop but no I want to be perfect. I wan to be thin. And if I died then at least I would have reached my freaking goal and looked amazing. They are just jealous that I have what it takes and they don’t. And that’s sad but they should seriously grow a pair. Any ways when they mentioned that it would kill me I just thought to myself that wouldn’t be so bad.
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Eating disorders are the deadliest mental illness. There are healthy ways to stay fit. I understand it’s like an addiction. There is therapy for that. I wish you luck.
When I was going through a personal hell, I lost quite a bit of weight a few years ago… to the point that I looked emaciated. Since then, I’ve gained much of it back… but, at the time, it raised some alarm bells with those around me. Whether I liked it or not, people commented on it. Many realized that there was a problem and wanted me to get help. Having gone through a bulimic period, I can tell you that it causes all sorts of problems… and not just weight loss. It gave my dentist a lot of work to do (due to the acid in the reversed food) and I occasionally passed out from lack of intake. Long story short, it was a bad time in life and the side effects were no better.
It might be a good idea to check your BMI online and see where it falls. Perhaps monitoring your calories and your food intake will help. Then slowly but surely reducing what you eat could help you lose the weight while still giving your body nutrition. It’s what I should have done initially but, due to stress, didn’t do.
Hi.
I know that usually, eating disorder isn’t actually about losing weight. It’s about struggling.
It can even be a good thing as long as it helps to keep you alive, but I think you really need someone who understands and bothers to.
You’re a strong person which makes you likely to get issues about society and yourself at some point. And you’re plenty angry, I guess, because no one sees your struggles and you’re left all by yourself. That’s a lot of energy, so it’s not really surprising that you need the binging and also the purging afterwards.
I think you’re a special person. I don’t know what experiences you’ve made that make you believe that only in being perfect, you have a worth in life (but I understand it so much). You deserve better.
I hope you will find someone who makes you feel precious.
I wish you all the best,
-R.