Hi, i’m new, sorry if i’m going to make some errors but english is not my main language.
Today i was on my Pc and came across this Website, at first i wasn’t sure if i really wanted to post something but i thought that this might help someone like it did with me. I am a 19 years old boy who really loves internet, videogames, anime etc. and, aside my parents, i had no one. I had no friends, they all left because i wasn’t “normal”, just because i didn’t like pubs, go to parties, smoke weed and things like that, i also never had a girlfriend, not because i am that ugly, but because they all see me like a “strange” person.
I was depressed, i wanted everything to end, it wasn’t about suicide, not at all, it was more like the “Even if the world ends in this exact moment i wouldn’t care less” attitude. One day, i said “f*ck you all” and completely closed myself into my world, i spent 14 hours a day on my Pc, playing multiplayer games and watching movies, i lived like this for 3 years, but, during that time, i knew a lot of people, but more specifically, a group of guys. At first, i considered them as “team mates” because we had only one interest in common, that game, but as the time went by, we started to chat and have fun together, we started to trust each other, we became friends. Today, i can’t say i have no regrets, i still miss not having a friend that’s “close” or more importantly a girlfriend who likes me for how i am, and i still don’t know how my future will be after i finish school, but i am not sad or depressed, not like before, i know that there is someone that every day is waiting for me, even if it’s only to play a videogame or to talk about stupid things, it just makes me happy.
I’m going to meet those guys in a month to celebrate the new year with them, and i’m so excited 🙂
– This was the short version of the story, it isn’t about “Just be a nerd and make friends online”, but you are not alone, even if it’s someone that lives far away from you, you may find a person who really cares about you, even if it’s only behind a monitor. Hope that this helps, thanks for your attention.
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In many ways, the Internet can be a great support. For example, I’ve met a few people here who have been there for me… particularly when I first arrived here a couple of years ago in a bad situation. I was thankful to them… and a couple are still here. Things have been a bit dark lately and I’m still getting some support. If this site wasn’t here, who knows what would have happened.
The internet has helped me no end and has “dragged me back from the edge” on several occasions. It’s a good place to connect with people in a safe and non-threatening way as long as you’re careful.