I hate when my mom is drunk or when her stupid boyfriend is drunk. ALL THEY DO IS FIGHT. I’m so sick of it, its been going on for 5 years, the alcohol the drugs the pushing the hitting. I’m done. They add so much more stress to me. I already have issues without them. I’m tired of the fighting. I hate seeing my mom crying, I hate seeing her drunk. I hate it when all her an her boyfriend want to do is drink. I stick around because my baby brother is 3 and someone has to be there to take him to the other room so he doesn’t see all of that. Someone has to tell him how much they love him. I live in that damn house, on this damn earth, for my brother. Without me he has no one. Like 2 nights ago, my mom was drinking and texting her boyfriend and cussing him out, so he gets there
and they start fighting and arguing. My mom leaves T
he house and doesn’t come back til the next day. Meanwhile I have my moms boyfriend asking me where she went like I know this stuff. So to deal with the all of that I cut myself. And that’s my little rant.
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Lovebug4142,
I’m very sorry for your situation – the position you and your brother are in is a very unfortunate one.
First off, I’d like to say that you sound like a wonderful sister and your brother is lucky to have somebody like you to look out for him.
Things at home definitely do not sound good. I would suggest telling someone about the problems if possible. Is there a family member somewhere you and your brother can stay with? Or maybe someone else, like a family friend? In any case, I feel someone should certainly know about what is going on – a teacher, a friend’s parents, or anyone else you can think of. Take care.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)
Thank you I try to be the best big sister I can be:) I actually have talked to a teacher about everything when I was a 7th grader (11th now) and a lot of drama happened. Now I have a new Mentor and I talk to her about EVERYTHING.
Fighting in front of kids is really bad. I dealt with my parents fighting in front of me when I was small, so I know it fucks your mind up in crazy ways. I’m sure what you’re doing for your brother will really help him not be quite as messed up in the future. I’m sorry you have to deal with that stress though. It’s really selfish of your mom and her boyfriend to put that onto you, even if it’s not consciously on their part.
Thank you, in 2 more years I’ll be 18 an hopefully things will get better. If not I’m leaving.
Lovebug4142,
DeathIsAnOption is right: It is wrong for your mom and her boyfriend to put that kind of stress on you and I’m sure your brother will be much better off for what you are doing for him.
I hope your Mentor is able to help in some way. If you feel things are getting really bad, hopefully she will be able to intervene and assist somehow. Best wishes.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)