not just my life, LIFE ITSELF

Why do we celebrate thanksgiving when its really a time of mass murder? Why do we celebrate Christmas and buy all sorts of junk when so many are starving? Why are priests molesting the kids? Why did people boot stomp babies, and pull them apart in fours called quartering? Why were Jews killed by the millions? Why were Africans killed by the millions? why does it seem like a cycle that will never end? I dont blame any race , color, creed or nationality for any of this.All that most of us have become and learned has been around and handed down from generation to generation.I used to try to find fault or blame, now all I want is 4 it all to end.It seems no one is safe, black, white, Chinese, indian, babies, elderly, no one.Any and all types of crimes , torture imaginable has gone on in this world, to all color races and creeds.My heart is so hurt, my mind is so confused.No matter what acts of kindess we do see, how do you erase , forget, ignore what has went on and what continues to go on.I dont see how we all aint depressed and insane.I never saw a horror movie, drahma, play, book or any fictional works that comes close to our reality. When I hear of people wanting to commit suicide , I dont think they crazy one bit, its the ones that love life I wonder about.I dont look down on people who somehow find wa ys to find life livable but I sure do wonder how the hell they do it.I dont care what no one says I just dont get it.so to all of you all that wants to end you alls life, I understand and for all that dont be thankful I guess because I think its a luxury that I ll never again enjoy.