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I am also living on a day by day basis. Its gotten really hard to get out of bed in the morning. Suicide is pretty close now.

I dont think a warriors death is quick though. In my head i think of medieval or even antic times when i hear the word warrior. And i think they painfully bled to death on the battlefield or died of some infection soon after. And even in modern times a bullet or explosion doesn’t always kill you. Think of all the wounded soldiers that come home scarred for life.

Or did you mean you want your death to mean something? Going down in a big couragous gesture?