I am a 37 year old male. I’ve had major depression since I was 13. Effexor is no longer working, and I do not see the point in continuing to increase the dose. It worked for a while, limiting very frequent thoughts of suicide to less frequent thoughts of suicide. I’ve never tried to kill myself, because I don’t want to hurt people who love me. Living for the past 24 years is like doing the dishes all the time. I perceive life as a complete waste of time and effort. Pop culture’s advertisement of life is unrealistic and even more boring than my life. I am a very handsome, smart, well educated person who has no time for plutonic or romantic relationships. I don’t believe in love as I have come to see that women who are physically attractive just want money, and the women who aren’t physically attractive are just that – whatever the case, there’s either no trust or no magic. If there’s no trust or magic, there’s no love. If there’s no love, what’s the point?
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I think u r an athiest… and try to have fun in life like go to the beach take a vacation. Take ur family to carnival or theme parks have fun. That is what u need. Just have fun amd think of happy moments
I believe there is love, however, it seems that people like myself who love with all they have seem to end up in relationships with people who don’t love in return. I don’t like bad boys or people who are mean so it’s not like I’m chasing after something I should know will end badly. I get together with people who claim to love me and then they don’t. Two times now I haven’t found that out until after marrying them. I said vows so I stay and try to make it work. Eventually they leave me. It’s like people see people like me and they know I will do anything for the ones I love so they take advantage because they know they can and they are selfish and don’t care if it destroys me. There are people out there who love and are loved in return. It just seems that somehow some of us can’t find that because we can’t wade through the sea of liars and manipulators. I wish I knew their secret…the ones who find their way to the other side…to happiness.
“Pop culture’s advertisement of life is unrealistic and even more boring than my life.” People always get this confused and dont understand.. pop culture is what it is, if you are into fashion, dancing, acting, etc. then it IS realistic and truly exciting. If your healthy, active and know what your doing with your life the pop culture is very interesting. If your life sucks because of the bad decisions made, well ya that glamorous life style will make you feel like shit and you will despise that culture. Its more for the youth, and for people that never lost that feeling as they grew older.
Also people get confused on hot girls just wanting money, wow, thats so untrue. Ofcourse they dont want you to be broke as fuck, that creates problems later down the road, as long as you can atleast afford to live properly and enjoy life the rest is up to chemistry and how you treat or make her feel, they want love. And sure you cant be ugly as fuck either. People like to blame negative shit on other people, when realistically its just you. YOU need to change your attitude towards all of this negativity, cause its just in your head.