He ruined my life….Now I’m Ruining Others.

I met a guy, a perfect guy, same height as me, beautiful teeth and smile, nice body, natural tan, had a good job and spoiled me. He’s 22 and I’m 19, at the time of this happening I was 18 and he was 21. We spent almost everyday together, riding out of town on the weekends and staying in hotels to make love. He introduced me to his son, step mom, birth mom, and father. I took him wherever he needed to go because he had no car and his licence was taken from him. Spending so much time together and being so physical, I fell in love, it was my 3rd time falling in love but this time it felt different, I felt even more proud to be the girl to claim him. Well i caught him cheating, but turned out it wasn’t just 1 other girl, there were 3 other girls. Me being worried, I examine myself and found a tiny bump, the size of a newly sharpened pencil tip. I decided to go get it checked out by a doctor, and Walah, I have Genital Warts. After he and I split up I got back with my ex who I was with for many years, He had gotten it from me, but he accepted it and we went through treatment together. Things started to change in our relationship and I started smoking weed out of depression of being stuck. I met a drug dealer that I actually went to school with and I started to buy weed from him on a regular basis, he liked me and we smoked a blunt together. He kissed me, I wasn’t expecting it, we snorted some kind of nerve pill and everything hazy, he took me to his bedroom and took advantage, not knowing I have Genital Warts, I finally told him about it and I felt horrible, I feel as though I’ve ruined his life, now I’m in a relationship with him but only because I don’t wanna spread and I feel terrible about how it all happened, I feel trapped, like there’s no way out and I’ll never have true love again.