My mother is literally a few paces away. If I went and told her right now that I am planning to kill myself, she will take me to a mental hospital. I could tell her.
But I won’t.
I have letters to write and grades to make. It’s not time yet. I’ll hold on a little bit longer. I have to follow my plan.
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Oh I know how you feel I was right in that moment where I was recording myself killing my self but once you do it there’s no going back dont do something you’ll regret you’re to good for that darling ????
Plan? Suicide plan? You should tell her. I’m in the same boat as you – keep on thinking about just ending it, now more than I ever have before and there’s a part of me that wants to tell someone and seek out help, but they wouldn’t understand… You should tell your mom. I really think you should tell her. Find it in yourself to seek out help. I’m not one to talk, like I said I haven’t told anyone either even though I know I should, but maybe you can do what I can’t. And maybe one day I’ll be able to too. I hope things get better for you.
I agree with NotSorry – your mom could find you the help you need (and based on your post, that you recognize you need). You wouldn’t have to necessarily be committed to a mental institution. If I had to guess, I would assume that at the very most, you would spend a few days in a psychiatric ward at the hospital and that the professionals would try and figure out what medication may be best to treat your particular feelings.
I do hope you will consider another option than taking your life. I realize it is difficult to open up about things such as this to those close to us, but really, I truly believe it is a better alternative. Best wishes.
L4Y
(L4Y@cogeco.ca)