Well the past few days I’ve been getting worse, quite bad to be honest. Today was my first day back at school after the holiday and I was so scared because I’ve been feeling extremely lonely and I know no one at my school cares about me, none of them ever want to talk to me. So yeah today I was quite scared because I had been convincing myself for ages that no one likes me and I’m never going to make friends anywhere, I’ll be lonely forever.
Yeah I do admit today was horrible, being surrounded by all those people who don’t care, turn their backs to me, and just simply don’t listen. But when I got home I was talking to an online friend I made ages ago, I realised something. I realised that I have made a few friends online, (I even met my boyfriend online and can’t wait till we leave school so we can be together at long last!) even if they don’t talk to me that much I know they appreciate me! They actually want to talk to me! I just have to be patient and wait till I can leave school to meet these people and hopefully more. To actually meet people who care about me and don’t ignore me 24/7. I hope this thought lasts in my mind but I’m pretty sure it won’t because nothing positive stays for long. That’s why I’m writing it here so I can read this again when I’m feeling lonely.
So for those of you out there who feel lonely a lot of the time and feel the whole world is against you, trust me there are people out there who do care and do want to talk to you. You just haven’t met them yet. So stick in there buddy I know you can make it!
PS. I’m here if anyone does ever need to talk because I love making friends, just email me or something:)
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Well i have a facebook account.
Email: dashing_98dj@hotmail.com
I dont know if u have facebook. Coz am new here and dont know much about using this page or something. I love to make friends and help them out (: . Anything else u have to ask u can ask on fb if u have it. I’ll try to stay online as much as i can
Thats a nice gesture of yours to offer support to others especially when you feel alone at school and i am sure you will make a difference in some peoples lives because of it but sometimes ypu wont know how much people apprevoate you.
School can be a lonely place especially if people ignore you or worse bully or spread rumours about you. Kids can often be cruel and unkind when they are with crowds or someone to back them up.
Rather than feel lonely at school are there some activities you can find to do tjat keep you busy so you can block out the lonliness? Eg. Can you volunteer in the library, help a teacher prepare something. Find a great book and put an ipod headphones in ypur ears and find a relaxing space to read?
Can you start and work on a scrapbook or art book pr begin wtiting a story of a girl or boy going thrpugh what you are going through?
Sometimes if you ignore the crowds and look quite comfprtable doing your own thing you attract others who are feeling lonely like you.
If ever amyone teases you about anything the best reaction is to give No reaction just shrug and walk away……this takes a lot of power away from them and they dont get the argument or attention they were looking for…of course if they try to physically hurt you or constantly harass you tjey need to be reported to school staff.
Anyway see how you go and talk to teachers ot school counsellor about your feelings or about possibly doing community work at your school as it always looks good in your school report.
hugs x
Aw thank you so much for these suggestions ill see if i can try a few. But its hard coz i do sit with a group of 7 people at break and lunch it’s just that im ignored in that group and i’m scared to do my own thing because i hate being judged I always try and fit in with the “cool” people or try to impress everybody and i know thats unrealistic but I dunno I guess i’m just really scared. I constantly feel like people are watching me then i become aware of my actions and start to fel unnatural which makes me feel like im being weird and ends up in a big cycle. I often feel lonely everywhere I go so I guess I’ll just put up with it for a couple more years till i can leave this town for good. I ave no idea where this is going anymore so i will shut up ahaha sorry
I tried counselling at school last year and it really didn’t work coz I never said anything:/
Thank you again for the help and suggestions! 🙂
Yes its a vicious cycle at times.
I know we all want to fit in with the cool kids….but that doesnt seem to be working.
I think you need to talk to someone anonymously on a phone helpline because its easier and people dont know you.and ypu are able to get an outsiders perspective
I also think you need to google self esteem or courses
Plus you need to practice some kind of meditation, relaxation or yoga so you can keep calm around school.
You could still legitamately do some school volunteer or community work 1 or 2 days a week if ypur school offers it and still be a coolkid 3 days a week!
Goodluck and please talk to someone fpr strategies…..being brave means asking for help.
Hugs x
I talk to people on a website called 7cupsoftea they help sometimes but i just think no one can help me no matter who i talk to because I’m just really bad at saying what’s on my mind like in my counselling sessions i just sat there and didn’t say anything coz my mind would go blank. Also maybe I should look up self esteem courses because even the person on the chat room thing i go on told me my self esteem isnt good and i didn’t even realise :/
7cupsoftea? is that a chatroom or..?
well you can chat to “Listeners” who give you a 1-on-1 talk if you need to but they dont deal with crisis. There is also a group chat part where everyone tries to talk and make people feel better.
cool. link me up
https://www.7cupsoftea.com/
thx brah