I’d like to reconsider my life. Find someone that I could speak to, someone that I could really pour my soul out to. I need someone that will care for me, caress me, hold me when I’m crying. Not a guidance councillor, not my parents or family, but someone.. A stranger. A stranger that understands. A stranger that will wipe away the drops of water rolling down my cheek. A stranger that will love me. A stranger that will not leave me stranded in a room full of depression. I need someone to look at me in the eyes, and tell me that I’m beautiful.
I am definitely not here for attention. I am here simply to share my deepest darkest secrets with strangers. I am here simply to demonstrate how I feel, explain who I am, what I’m looking for.
But scrolling through these notes, really taking the time to read them, I’ve realized that I’m making myself worse. By listening to sad music, watching sad videos, is all making everything worse. But doing all these things somehow make me realize that I’m not the only one suffering.
I’m trying so hard to get my shit together, trying so hard to make things right.
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Hey Im not sure I can do all you ask, Im an 18 year old girl… but I can be a friend, just as Im looking for a friend to share and understand each other…accept the pain that pulses through us and try to find a reason, a hold on to this dark world…its weird because I listen to sad music and watch sad videos, read sad books…almost all the suicide books Ive read at my library, I do feel worse, terribly alone and falling into the part in mysrlf that us so hard to get out of. I care, talk to me 562 986 eight27zero
good luck finding that
Tell yourself that you’re beautiful – you don’t need to validate yourself through a *****