So today sucked.
It started off with me telling my mom that I had a girlfriend and her going on this long ass rant that basically amounted to her not being okay to it and when I asked she flat out told me she wasn’t. Then it was an awkward car ride and an awkward day at the barn where I felt unwanted. Then when I came home I kinda just kept to myself until my lovely sister comes home and freaks out on my because the bathroom was a mess when all that was left out was the dog shampoo and their towel and brushes because my mom wanted to wash my other dog since I did kokoa earlier. Then my whole entire family flips out on me because I got a little upset over my sister freaking out on me. And now I feel like complete shit and I’m sitting in my bed crying my eyes out because now apparently I’m going to cyber school because I always have an attitude. When I honestly don’t. And I’m sorry if I get so over emotional when all everyone seems to do is make me feel like shit anymore. Half the time I want to die and it fucking sucks. It honestly does.
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I wish I could give you some advice to make you feel better or to give you a solution. I grew up in a similar situation when I was a kid and I’m still going through some abuse from family. I guess the best thing to do is to get away if you can. Emotional abuse leaves marks too. I wish you the best and know that you have a great community here. Stay strong…
Thank you.. And I’m trying to stay strong. It’s just so hard when this happens so often.
So it’s ok to get emotional. We all do. Don’t apologize for how you feel. I understand. Just try to find peace. Don’t let your emotions drive you crazy.
I feel like they expect me not to feel or to bottle up all of my emotions. Even when I need to talk to someone I try talking to my mom but she never wants to listen.
I feel the same way as you. I mean I would go home and my family would fucking flip shit on me for the smallest things. I have a boyfriend and he’s five yeas older than me and it’s long distance I chose not to tell my parents only my friends would know because I know for sure they’ll give me this long as shit of a paragraph saying how irresponsible and young I am that I shouldn’t be doing things like this. Like fuck they don’t realize they don’t know anything about me or what’s happening in my life. If they keep treating you like shit just come out and say it to their faces see how they react if they react negatively I suggest moving to another relative or friend’s house. If they act reasonably good for you. I wish I had parents like that.