Im sorry if i let you down mate

i think i might of fucked up this friendship super bad and im not sure if you come here anymore, or under a different name so i wont see you suffering, but, im sorry i didnt make more of an effort, i find it hard sometimes,but im not going to make excuses, it was shitty of me to do when you were suffering, and i wish i could go back and call you more, instead of waiting a week to call you, then letting it go when you didnt pick up,

i wish i tried to call you 5 times that night more even, instead of the two. i wish i hadn’t left it another 2 weeks before i properly let worry take me over.

i still want you in my life mate. i still want to come and visit you and write you all the time. and talk to you for hours on end like we did. even if its about nothing, or everything. where its gets to the point where we run out of words, and all we can do is agree and just say its a mental world.

if you dont want me in yours thats okay. just, let me know your alright, if you are okay. i just want you to be okay.

we made a promise remember. Though, idk if it means much anymore, if were even friends now, does that change anything? idk, just please be alright, let me know xx