life is killing me. for the last 3 years i’ve held it sort of together but I have no strength anymore- mentally emotionally or even physically.
the man who abused me 3 years ago is the only person who understands how and why im broken- hes the one who did this. i hate with such contempt the only person who ‘gets me’.
The kid I loved like a brother, depended on him to keep preaching how everything will be okay, that one day I can go home where there’s no sadness, well he gave up, said he cant help me anymore.
my mum said i’m making her ill, I cant even look at her anymore, everything she says or does hurts. being in the same room hurts.
my bus buddy from school said I need help, said im going anorexic, said im too depressed. – lets hang up here, TOO depressed? im sorry but what? its fine for me to be hurting for the last 3 years but when it starts effecting others then I need help? pfft.
my school report ‘ needs to stop being so negative’ ‘ should try not to be so depressive’.
so I ask for help and no one gives me any.
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hey there.
I know youve tried alot of stuff, and nothing and noone seems to be able to help. I get it. I’ve been there. Try being happy with what you have. Not forever, not all day, not even for an hour. Just reflect on what you have to be happy about for as long as you can. Then at least when your surrounded by hurt, you’ll be happy for at least a moment.
People seem to love to tell you what you should be doing, but won’t actually help you do it.