I get crap for literally everything.
My music, my hair, my weight, my face, my personality, my sexuality, just everything.
I’m so tired of it..I know it seems ridiculous, but every day I get told to kill myself or hurt myself in general. I know I could just ignore it, but it’s not that easy when it constantly happens.
I don’t want to exist anymore. I won’t be hard to be forgotten. I’m just a waste lf space, time, and life. People have tried to help me, but it feels like there’s this darkness that kust pulls me back. No matter how hard I try. It’s killing me. I just can’t do this anymore. I drink almost every day to cope, I selfharm, I think of dying every day..
I just don’t think I keep doing this anymore..it’s just getting too hard. I’m sick all the time, I’m put down every day..Is it honestly worth it? Would it be worth waiting?
I’ve disconnected myself from everyone since I was 12..i’ve planned this since I was 12. It’s just been a waiting game until I got the strength enough to do it. I think I’m ready..
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Hey there … *hug* I can relate to how you feel … But hang in there all right? I wish you all the best in everything <3
hey bro i noticed on your other post you said you’ve developed mental illness throughout your life. I remember being in that hole was pretty horrible.
Im 35 now and i still have issues now and then but i mostly keep things together in my life through the large ammount of knowledge ive accumulated about so called natural remedy’s and and keeping fit. I try to work out alot, and bulking up ive found has made me feel way better. Anyway, what i wanted to say is have you tried taking anything like tumeric on a regular basis or other good spices ginger? doc’s will always say that stuff doesn’t work cause they’d be out of business lol. There is a nice drink you can make with tumeric thats been used by indians for 100’s of years. Generally you mix tumeric with hot milk and honey. If it stains tumeric fades with sunlight, really interesting spice.
Heres an article to read about it, http://authoritynutrition.com/top-10-evidence-based-health-benefits-of-turmeric/
its one of the best spices you can supplement your diet with, there are others as well. Ive been seeing a large shift in general with people moving to things like this cause so called modern medicine doesn’t work lol. Fact is, alot of things you could use to help yourself feel better are in spice and herb section of the supermarket isle. The key is research.
Takecare bro, and i hope things are ok.
I’m just so tired of it..
People who just bug others about things that don’t even affects them, are not worth listening to.
I know it’s hard to ignore, especially if they’re persistant idiots, but it’s easier once you understand how silly and nonimportant they actually are.
There’s nothing wrong with you, there’s a lot wrong with THEM.