I am a young adult. I would like to take my life. Reasons:
-I am innately evil. This brings me overwhelming shame.
-I do not correct my actions. I repeat my evil actions. This brings me guilt and shame.
-I am of no use and a burden to my family, my social circle and my workplace. Shame-shame-shame.
-I do not deserve my salary because I don’t work half as hard as I should. I am cheating my clients out of their money.
-After spending my whole life in this attitude towards life, I am convinced that I cannot change or, though I can, it is too hard.
-Additional reasons for suicide: unsatisfactory weight, personality. Also never been kissed, let alone had a boyfriend. Haven’t had a best friend in more than seven years. I yearn for these two kinds of relationships.
Don’t get me wrong. Life is beautiful. I love laughing and big skies. I love literature. But I’m going nowhere, and a little folly brings much grief. I must prevent myself from doing any more damage.
I have considered incineration as the best option. It’s clean. Before this, I plan to get rid of all my possessions so as not to overburden my family. Also remunerate the people I have cheated. And before I go, perhaps I will leave my family a simple note of thanks, for example:
Dearests,
God bless you always.
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It doesn’t sound like you’re evil at all. It sounds like you’re trying to repent for things you’ve done. And are you kidding, not having the right weight or personality, never being kissed or had a boyfriend/girlfriend. If those were grounds for suicide a third of the population would be suiciding. And evil people probably wouldn’t care about leaving their family a note before they go. Lastly I don’t think overwhelming shame is a trait of evil people.
Evil people have no regrets. here are my reasons –
31 years of evidence that I am undesirable to society
I am ugly
My brain is wired in a way to were I can’t experience joy and relaxation
I can only experience anxiety, fear, anger, stress, and depression
I have been this way all my life – it is apart of my genetic makeup
I tried so hard to succeed in this world, but every time i did i failed and ended up in a worse place than I was to begin with
I never was a happy person – picked on and rejected all my life
I know too much about natural selection and our own animal instincts to know that I am being cast out by society
Everything that seemed “good” in my life or those small times when things seemed up, it was ether because I was fooling myself, being used, or things didn’t turn out well.
I could tell you about my experiences but right now id have to wait. id be here for hours but ill give bits in pieces in my posts in the future.
I could write a list of reasons, but that defeats the purpose of this site. It’s much easier to see the negative things in your life than the positive things. That being said, suicide is a permanent solution to your list. Therefore, just make sure your list is correct before you do it. A better way to look at might be to see if you can change any of those items on your list.
OR, even better, get in touch with your inner self and create a list that’s actually correct.