As a 31 year old male, I have suffered all my life in one way or another. I have never been happy and things just seem getting worse. I am not one of those manic guys ether. I been wanting to die since 2007, I just haven’t found a method yet. I tried to help myself and get help but realized that my brain is wired in such a way that ill probably be miserable until i die. It’s like i’m a square trying to fit inside a circle. I am also ugly so the social rejection hurts. What boggles my mind is – why do humans minimize the value of life to just a beating heart? Doesn’t the value and quality of life come hand in hand? In most states, unless your in Oregon, no matter how much pain your in with a terminal illness, they will force feed you “life” until you die. They will force you to go to Hospice (modern day concentration camps) while you slowly parish. This is a form of torture and barbarism! I am glad people like Brittney Maynard had the gift to go! Back to my original point – why can’t I have that gift as well? I don’t have a terminal illness but my emotional suffering I am going though is just as bad. I am going to suffer until i die. I wish someone could help me find the right stuff that could do it painlessly. I wish there was laws that allowed people like me to choose when to die. I didn’t choose to be born and I damn sure didn’t choose to be born with the cards I was dealt with! I don’t fit into this world. The way society works is the exact opposite in how I work. I gave up a long time ago. Do you also want the gift to go?
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Hello friend…..man, can I relate to how you feel. I’ll be 60 next week and except for some severe heart issues that knocked me down in 2009, I feel as if I am reading my own story. I am just plain worn out and want to go to sleep and never wake up. People who take the time to get to know me all say “you are such a kind person.” It’s a pity kindness and having a caring heart are seen as weakness in this current society. I pray someone will come along who will value you.
Peace and prayers…..Bayareaguy – Jay
Thank you. Sorry your life has been filled with so much suffering as well. It’s hard. “Normal” people don’t realize how hard it is for us! I think there is a huge arrogance in people who believe that we shouldn’t have the right to choose when to go. Heck even having the method with me would give me comfort because at least i would have it with me when i needed it. I am a kind person too but what really brought me down is the fact that people took my kindness for gullibility and milked it for all its worth. Not sure why aggressive people get all the perks in life!
What you mentioned about minimizing the value of life to a beating heart is tied closely with the mechanisms that lead people to religious belief (as well as many of their other values). It’s a way of thinking that is necessary for survival, for the time being.
We’ll make progress, slowly, but there’s a good chance it won’t be in your life time or in your country. It would be interesting to have application-based euthanasia clinics. But most of the world is a long way from that.
I wish I could shoot you in the head. I mean that in a kind of loving way.
Would like to die too, have wanted to for months. But unless i have an off button i wont
I’d like to see assisted suicide recognized as a general right, although even if it were lcegalized tomorrow I wouldn’t personally make use of it. Not because I think life is so great, but merely because I’m not as concerned as assisted suicide advocates are about painless death. They want to medicalize death through pills, whereas I would rather slit my throat or do something even more painful. But it still should be an option for those who want it, which it was in classical antiquity. People could go request a dose of poison from the magistrates for pretty much any reason at all. They didn’t need a terminal diagnosis, and Greek medicine wasn’t then sophisticated enough to be able to provide one anyway.
Amen! if euthanasia was legalized id go right now and buy that peaceful pill!