Just so that I can see who would miss me?
Because right now it feels like no one would.
Like my life is so insignificant that it doesn’t matter if I’m here or not.
I don’t think my roommates would care.
I’m the only girl living in house of guys.
They don’t notice the cuts on my wrist.
Or that I spend most days crying in my room.
Or maybe they do and they just don’t care.
Either way it’s not their fault. I’m the one who is broken.
I just wish that someone would notice.
I’m just so fucking lonely.
It’s suffocating.
Every single day I live life feeling like i’m constantly suffocating.
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It does matter. It matters to you. I’m sorry your roommates are not aware of what you are going through. But you will find that beyond this and you have look at the life you want to live. BUT when you are feeling so low, that can be overwhelming.
I challenge you to find ONE thing that you can do each day. Just one. If you can’t, try again the next day.
People do care. I care. You have to try to care for you.
WhereIsTheSilverLining ,
THATS RIGHT TEAR MY HEART OUT! Look roommates are just that! I’d miss you! just from your post! stop cutting that doesn’t help, your crying out to roommates! you need to live be patient, and look beyond where you are living, you will find someone that really care about you, that will love you! move in with him, and life will be so much better, roomates aren’t anything close to what you are looking for. but look! be patient seek and you will receive , but what chance have you got crying and cutting? no body wants a problem child! you need to act and be worth having! sorry if I sound cruel, but think about it! you want to be loved? you must have something to offer, not I want to die look at my scares and I hate myself! love yourself and then people can love you back.
It’s so hard to see anything good in myself. I feel like waste of space.
I’ve known these people for three years now, I just i good call them true friends.
That’s all i want.
WhereIsTheSilverLining,
if that’s what you want you should be happy, that’s not what you want! friends are ok, but you want more than that. so stop dragging your ass, and fix yourself up! and get what you really want!
Right now, more than a lover, all I want are true friends.
I am 21 years old, and have never been in a relationship. I’ve never even been kissed.
I don’t know the first thing about love.
Just go out get rottingly drunk and pick up some nice looking random. It all starts from there.
Oh and take the morning after pill 😉
Schizophrenia 222
That’s still a little to scary for me 😛