You may all think I am hopelessly naive, but I am a person of faith. I long to be done with this side of existence as I really have no one or anything to make hanging around worthwhile. I suffered intense bullying as a child and teenager. I attempted at 17. But once I was out of high school, things did change. And although I have always been the proverbial misfit and lonely my entire life, things did get somewhat better for me and I had two successful careers in retail and travel. Now my health has taken all of that from me and depression is my constant companion. I didn’t see this coming so late in life. It comes and goes at different levels of intensity, without warning or trigger.
So I say to our younger friends, I know how desperately sad and lonely you feel. I have been there, on several occasions.
As I said I am a person of faith, and it matters to me that you stay alive. Go ahead and roll your eyes at the silly old man. But please listen to this song from Les Miserables, sung by the incomparable Josh Groban. It is my prayer to and for you.
Peace
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Awww, bayareaguy that’s a sweet gesture to reach out to the young ‘uns. I didn’t listen to the vid coz I’m not heavy into music anymore plus I am a fellow relative oldie (53 here) but I hope today holds something good for you (preferably not involving the Golden Gate Bridge lol).
I had an Aunt Louise. She passed when I was still a kid.
The vid with Josh Groban is a cover of one of the most famous songs from the Broadway Musical, Les Miserables. It was a so-so movie in 2012. I suggest you listen to it if only to appreciate the instrument that is Josh Groban’s voice. And the lyrics are pretty special, too.
At present, I am winding up 3 months in Los Angeles where I have been filling in at an Episcopal Franciscan Friary. It’s a small house, only room for 4 persons with no guest facilities. One of the long time friars has left and the remaining three need help as two if them are over 80 and no one drives. I am preparing to head back to Phoenix next week, where I will live for the foreseeable future.
The GGB will always haunt me. I knew 2 people who ended their lives there. I have stood at that railing on several occasions in the last 4 years. Anyone who says suicide is the coward’s way out is ignorant beyond belief . It takes the courage of a lion to actually make the jump. To die by suicide takes balls the size of Detroit (forgive the crudity).
Well, it’s time for my nap. Isn’t that just a huge reversal of attitude from childhood years? I love sleep.