Depression has literally ruined my life. My mom doesn’t accept me because of my behavior so I got moved away for my only biological family (my sister) and moved to my dads, which his girlfriend doesn’t accept me because of my behavior and the fact that my dad goes out of his way to help benefit me so that I don’t jump off his balcony. I was a straight A B C student till around 7th grade I lost all motivation but somehow made it to 9th grade and completely failed because I stayed in the bathroom due to the fact that I hated going in the halls and passing people and walking into the classrooms and people looking at me and the fear of my teacher asking me a question because I sure wasn’t paying attention I didn’t prefer being alone but I couldn’t be around people for some reason. So I repeated the grade this year and I haven’t been to school the past 3 months… I can’t find a guy that can handle my weird as mood disorder and depression and anxiety and truth issues all at once so the feeling that I’m going to die a depressed lonely bum is very presentpresent. Fucking depression man…
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angel little ,
you need to calm down, not everyone is looking at you, you bring attention to yourself doing silly things like hiding, be brave! pay attention in school, stop running away, eventually it will pass.
Don’t tell me that. I try to sit in class and have panic attacks . I don’t want attention that’s why I hide. The fact that you’re pretty much telling me to get over something I can’t control shows you shouldn’t be giving any type of feedback especially not to me. If you can’t relate don’t say anything.
angel little,
Sorry again! I know all about panic attacks 🙂 I’ve suffered them too! I wouldn’t tell you something if I didn’t know, you can control it, it not easy, you need to try harder, I don’t want you to suffer anymore, Lorazepam is a good drug to take when you feel like that, it will get you through.