General help by rocher0115 4/27/2015 written by rocher0115 4/27/2015 I’m not secure anymore. My walls were supposed to keep me safe and yet I find I crash and burn. He wasn’t supposed to hurt me. Fathers shouldn’t do that. The abuse, the bullies, the torture…. It’s all too much. I’m not sure how much more I can take abusebulliesburnhurtsafetoo much 2 comments 0 Email Related posts Calling All Mad Scientists 9/17/2021 Kiss of Burning Ash 9/17/2021 too much and never enough 9/17/2021 Can’t Go On Anymore 9/17/2021 Note from several years ago, still feels relevant 9/16/2021 Sigh… 9/16/2021 Fed up 9/15/2021 GO AWAY! 9/15/2021 Escaped but still suicidal 9/15/2021 How long have you been depressed? 9/15/2021 2 comments QuirkyFox 4/28/2015 - 2:11 am I wish I could help. Words cannot erase your past, but there is at least one person now hoping you pull through, grow stronger and find somewhere safe. Log in to Reply cephalus 4/28/2015 - 8:25 pm No fathers shouldn’t. When I was growing up my parents decided to become foster parents. Once we took in a boy named Paul. Paul wasn’t smart, was not particularly good at anything and was angry. But boy, did we have a good time together. Sure, we fought lots (one of the few people I’ve had fist fights with). We were competitive, and angry, but we laughed. One of the most tragic things was him showing scars from where his dad beat him. In one breath he would be talking about this 4 inch puffed scar (his back, arms and legs were littered such scars), and in the other about how his dad is his hero. I never had the heart to tell him what I thought of his dad and what a peice of trash he was. Right now, Paul is probably either dead or acting like his father. Its a terrifying thought to me. I tell you this not to say things could be worse, but to say, your parents are just people. Don’t idolize them, learn from them. Learn what not to be like. Clearly you already recognize this. I was lucky, I have a wonderful and kind dad. There are people out there like that. Run if its bad, all you need is a door and a highway. You can be anyone you want to be. You can change your name and become who you want. Your life is yours. And you will find kind people along the that will help. Use your brain, trust your heart. In the mean time, keep posting, keep reading, many others here are going through similar things. We’ll listen. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.