Everyone is asleep. The kids. The gf. The city.
its only me that is lurking in the shadows. where im supposed to be. I feel sorry for those who have to look at me at all. I wish them everything else in the world.
Im hidius. Discusting. Retarded. Ugly. Filthy. Bad. Worse. Whore! Fat. Weak. Stink. Mong. Abnormous. Garbage. Trash. Lazy. Sick.
Everyone hates me. And i know why. Thats nothing to hide. I know the exact reasons why.
Im trying my best here! I really do. But nothing seems to be working. I keep doing the same mistakes over and over again. No matter how hard i try, i always fuck up. Every desicion. Every waken hour. No matter what i do, it will always be worse. Couse i did it. Name it, and i will have tryed and failed.