I attempted to commit suicide last night by suffocation. Did not work. I also tried hanging myself: no success there. Think I might try a drug overdose next time.
Here we go again. Another cliché. The most likely reason it’s not working is a simple combination: 1) Not doing it right. & 2) Not truly wanting to succeed.
No shame in that, by the way. None at all. The overwhelming majority of suicide attempts fail, and fail badly. Read the statistics. Killing yourself is a very difficult proposition. Especially if you are actually not entirely ready to do so. I know. Been there, done that. Spent 5 long days in the psych ward afterwards. Next time I will be ready, and there won’t be a next time after. It will be done.
I’ve been in the hospital 3x’s for very serious suicide attempts( 2 overdoses), I wanted it. No matter how hard I tried I was always “saved”. It made me angry for awhile, but, I appreciate that now that I’m not still in the same childish mindset. Have scars on my arm that stare at me everyday and fucked up thoughts to accompany them. Despite everything, I know suicide is not what’s truly meant for me. Was just trying to help.
OD’s are very unreliable even with prescription medication, at most they will give you liver failure and you’ll die slow and painfully from that. Hanging is tricky as well but more reliable, look into that more in depth rather than OD imo. I’m not encouraging suicide though, only giving you advice so you don’t permanently damage something up in your body through a botched OD attempt.
Well, once you get more attempts under your belt the suicide association will consider sponsoring you. It’s a rigorous evaluation process, but once they know you qualify, you can get the proper hardware for your attempts in the future.
Also, a byproduct of sponsorship, you will gain a lot of clout on this forum. Being accepted here is a supreme privilege.
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Maybe if it’s not working it’s not supposed to happen.
Here we go again. Another cliché. The most likely reason it’s not working is a simple combination: 1) Not doing it right. & 2) Not truly wanting to succeed.
No shame in that, by the way. None at all. The overwhelming majority of suicide attempts fail, and fail badly. Read the statistics. Killing yourself is a very difficult proposition. Especially if you are actually not entirely ready to do so. I know. Been there, done that. Spent 5 long days in the psych ward afterwards. Next time I will be ready, and there won’t be a next time after. It will be done.
I’ve been in the hospital 3x’s for very serious suicide attempts( 2 overdoses), I wanted it. No matter how hard I tried I was always “saved”. It made me angry for awhile, but, I appreciate that now that I’m not still in the same childish mindset. Have scars on my arm that stare at me everyday and fucked up thoughts to accompany them. Despite everything, I know suicide is not what’s truly meant for me. Was just trying to help.
OD’s are very unreliable even with prescription medication, at most they will give you liver failure and you’ll die slow and painfully from that. Hanging is tricky as well but more reliable, look into that more in depth rather than OD imo. I’m not encouraging suicide though, only giving you advice so you don’t permanently damage something up in your body through a botched OD attempt.
Well, once you get more attempts under your belt the suicide association will consider sponsoring you. It’s a rigorous evaluation process, but once they know you qualify, you can get the proper hardware for your attempts in the future.
Also, a byproduct of sponsorship, you will gain a lot of clout on this forum. Being accepted here is a supreme privilege.
GODSPEED
What is the suicide association? Is that a real thing? Is it possible for me to join?
fallensovietgirl,
your not very good at that are you? maybe you should take a break 🙂