Hi all,
I have been suffering from manic depression from decades and I am not gonna lie to you. It all started when my mum committed suicide in front of me and spiralled out of control when work stress gets me. I have had many suicidal attempts , no good at that. The medication i have been taking for decades dont work, i feel suicidal everyday, i turn up for work and put on a fake smile until one day, one of my juniors asked me if I were ok? Cover blown…
Of course i am not freaking ok, but i told him that i was fine, long night etc. I am sick of putting on this false facade, how i wish i could just shout out, I am fooked, I wanna to die, get out of my face. But the work place doesnt allow that esp I when I am one of the management with a workforce of over 5,000. fook it………………
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suffering from manic depression me too
thinking we in the right place
i have no idea how to help you wish I could but you sound ok hope you work it out and be ok and enjoy life
Gone169,
Well good choice keep that stuff to yourself, it may sound mean but you won’t get any mileage out of it, you need to be ok with yourself, your mom committed suicide very sad! but why let it haunt you, you are your own person you do what you need to do for your self.