I honestly have stopped caring about what anybody has to say about me . I plan on leaving soon I’m doing my best at enjoying my last days ( but of course I am not) my mom has been rubbing my mistakes in my face and she’s really just making this living hell. I am really not close with my siblings or father because I am 17 and under 18 I can not do as I please. This last year I have been in the hospital twice for suicide attempts and I have been a rebel with my mom …. She tries to control my life and that drives me insane, I ranwaya and I have always been on drugs . she of course found out about everything and I know she is feed up with it all. Today’s her birthday . we argued in the morning . It doesn’t matter if I left I’d be doing her a favor and she will be able to sleep better at night and not worried if I am still alive because I will be gone .
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when similar things happened to me towards the end of high school, I tried and thought about hurting my self and ending it everyday. The only thing that stopped me wasn’t friends, mentors, or my parents. It was my will to leave the abusive house I lived in and the torments and scars it had brought me. I too tried running away taking pills and other ways to escape. But in the end it was my graduation date that led me living because that day was the one I knew I could be free.
Try holding on, we all have that power inside of us we just need to find it. Only you can help yourself. You can be free, just like I finally am now
i am sorry for what you have gone through. what drugs you have been on? age does not matter in closeness to siblings and father. may you be able to get through it and get what you want.
Good to see you survived another day Hun… I know things were major desperate yesterday… Any better today? X
Yeah better day (:
Well I used to smoke pot but the most recent drug was WOO(coke) I’m off them and really it was only when I would go out and bout to patries but lately I have been avoiding parties just because I don’t feel like getting ready and I know I’m just hurting my body. If I do go out its with my friend, but he’s a dude and I don’t
Know what his intentions are with me . I hope he’s not another fuck boy
He will only be that (another fuck boy) if you allow him to be. It depends on what you allow him to do and how you respond to that treatment. I know it’s hard when your emotions are low and your hormones are flying high not to give in to guys, but try to take things really slow and share your feelings that you’re not interested in anything if he just wants that because you’re really delicate atm. I hope he’s a good lad. X