Well, I will uh, I’ll keep this concise. I am admittedly young. I am old enough to realize that I have feelings for members of the same sex, and, when my parents found out, indeed, my dad broke into my phone and found my boyfriends contact, we’re not happy. Their supposed perfect son was…. Undesirable as far as they are concerned. They have tried to get me to fix my “lifestyle” and “help me though this phase.” As it is, this is just…. Breaking me. I physisically cannot fathom how who I care about can make me undesirable. And while, I have figured might as well survive for a few more years, further resolve to live past that is… Minimal. No. Nonexistent. People say a mothers love is powerful. While that my be true, I have figured that a mothers rejection, no, disgust at who you are is much much stronger. Now, I was never an uptight kind of guy. No, there is no violence or verbal assalt against me, for that I am great full, but, the obvious distaste. Brazen looks of “where did I go wrong?” Is slowly eating me alive. I suppose I am looking for…. Help? No. Advice. Something to pull me through. Thank you for reading. And, feel free to give me a word of wisdom. I really do need them.
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I have a friend who could only be described as “always gay”. His parents put him through hell. He attended camps designed to “purge” the evil from him. (read brainwashing) He is still very gay, but damaged because of it. Eventually his parents learned to accept him, they feel very guilty for what they put him through. He will probably always have scars and trouble because of it. I always enjoyed his company and he seems to be doing very well. I’m glad you feel stronger. I hope you accept your parents arcane, antiquated and stupid views. Perhaps, you can love them and show them a better way. Even if they can’t do the same to you.
I like you just the way you are. There is nothing wrong with you.
You are still their child. You are awesome in every way possible (although I don’t know you). The first thing they probably thought is “Where did I go wrong?” or “Is it my fault?” It is not their fault but it is not yours either. Sooner or later they are going to have to accept you. You should be proud that you came out of the shadows. Many people are afraid of coming out because of rejection. You decided to be different. Although I may not know what it’s like to feel rejected by your own parents I know what it’s like when you’re still not accepted for being who you are. Yo’u’re being yourself and you should be proud of that. Someone special to me is not exactly in the same situation as you but he is afraid to let people know who he truly is. Neither his brother nor his sister know anything but he decided to trust me. Just remember, feel happy that you’re not afraid 🙂
Parents are just as imperfect as anyone else. They have their own preconceived notions of how the world should work. And when reality interferes with that, they have to adjust. And some parents refuse to do so, steadfastly holding on to their version of the world. Do they realize that by doing so they are damaging their own offspring? Who knows?
Some parents eventually come around to grudgingly accept a certain situation. Some actually have a complete change of heart. But, unfortunately, some will never budge, no matter the damage they have perpetrated. And their kids pay for it.