Today I came across a post of a someone who said he’s changed, he’s unhappy and says that he has to wear his old happy mask in front of others..
And I’ve come to the conclusion that, maybe accepting the new mask and wearing it, as different and somber as it may be; forming a new life (which is a collection of ideas and actions) around the new mask is key to rebuilding one’s life – as opposed to living a lie with the old mask, the wrong mask.
How can anyone live comfortably or truthfully with a mask that no longer fits them? That’s like wearing a pair of shoes that’s too small, it hurts and you can’t walk anywhere in them.
Just like this feeling stagnant feeling of living a dead life, unable to move in any direction.
Perhaps it’s time to accept the new changes and stop fighting it.
Somehow our faces are important in this realm of existence. Our faces are the masks of our consciousness, where exactly that point is no one knows. It could be any where and every where in the matrix.
I believe our ego has a chokehold around our potential expanded consciousness that is the key to freeing our minds and ironically the death of our minds.
Ego is where fear lives, I have got to overcome this thing, this evil thing that is implanted in me. How can I find the answer to the riddle?
I think I found it one day for a brief moment in time when I believe to experienced an Ego death that allowed my senses feel no boundaries. This Oneness, am I supposed to hold onto that feeling forever? What if i was just hallucinating?
Is the secret to life energy, all this pain is for nothing, unless it’s meant to raise our consciousness to a higher level of understanding, so when we die we get to proceed to a higher plane of existence?
God, I never want to come back here. Is this information true? Is it not enough to help me live happier because I can’t get over the feeling of being unworthy of anything good? Am I too stupid to live with that knowledge, or maybe I think I am, maybe Ego tells me I am too weak.
Maybe my war isn’t with God it’s with Ego, and not just my Ego but the whole world’s collective Ego. “The Evil ONE”
What is this life? Who are we? Questions I keep asking myself and everyone I know, and no one has the answers.
Thank you to the creators of this site, I just had to get it out of me, my suicidal thoughts, my mind falling into the black abyss, I needed to write about it, read about it, connect with others. Thank you so much, I feel so much better. I’m going to put down the mental gun and figure out how to beat this Ego problem before I waste the rest of my life away.
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Are you a philosopher?
No, I think I’m just an idiot trying to figure out what to do with my life. Trying to find the guide within me to keep straight.
I don’t think so. These are very sophisticated writings and only a spiritual-leader/philosopher/scientist/psychologist/poet/novel-writer can only write it.
You are so making me smile right now, thank you.
I am none of those things, but I would be like to be. I do like to write, I feel a release when I do, no wonder I’ve been feeling so down lately, not writing.
I’ve had unusual experiences happen to me to get to this way of thinking. And oddly enough I think I feel a heightened sense of energy, like the chakras in my body. I can feel them at times, (there’s little ones on the sides of nose that isn’t mentioned in any texts I’ve read) but not so much when I’m depressed, maybe that’s why “they” say they are blocked, by negativity. My family think’s I’m making this up. My brother won’t even talk to me about it, he just says ” I believe in Jesus Christ Sis” and shuts me down then goes sells pot, my mom just gets a glazed look over her face and wants another ciggerette. There’s no talking about things like this with them, or anyone I know actually.
Maybe I should write more and meet more people like myself. Everyone I know is either nonspiritual or following spiritual beliefs with no idea of what it really means to them. I’m just not like them, I feel pretty lonely, crazy at times actually.
They say it takes one to know one, are you any of those things?
MoonShine knows just what to write to people without being disingenuous or patronizing or condescending or ridiculous. Seems wise to me. Just saying. Not trying to make anyone feel uncomfortable.
@freeshine, No I am not any of those things which I have written. But I likes to read the poems, stories, spiritual things, science (e.g-how evolution has thrown us out of the society) and other stuff like that of other people.There is a lot of plagiarism in my posts I have made till now. Maybe I am good in one or more things but I am weak overall in the most things that are important.
Thanks ikki for the compliment.
I wonder what you will do. I wish you could feel better. I hate it when anything that is capable of suffering does.